—(Soma)tic 5: Storm SOAKED Bread, by CAConrad


—for Julian Brolaski

Sit outside under shelter of a doorway, pavilion, or umbrella on a park bench, but somewhere outside where you can easily touch, smell, taste, FEEL the storm. Lean your face into the weather, face pointed UP to the sky, stay there for a bit with eyes closed while water fills the wells of your eyes. Come back into the shelter properly baptized in the beauty of pure elements and be quiet and still for a few minutes. Take some preliminary notes about your surroundings. Try not to engage with others who might run to your shelter for cover. If they insist on talking MOVE somewhere else; you are a poet with a storm to digest, this isn’t time for small talk! You are not running from the storm, you are opening to it, you are IN IT! Stick a bare arm or foot into the storm, let your skin take in a meditative measure of wind and rain. If you are someone who RAN from storms in the past take time to examine the joys of the experience. Remind yourself you are a human being who is approximately 80 percent water SO WHAT’S THE HARM OF A FEW DROPS ON THE OUTSIDE!? Right? YES! Pause, hold your breath for a count of 4, then write with a FURY and without thinking, just let it FLOW OUT OF YOU, write, write, WRITE!

Set an empty cup in the storm, hold a slic of bread in the storm. Then put a little salt and pepper on your storm soaked bread, maybe some oregano and garlic. With deliberate SLOOOWNESS chew your storm bread and drink the storm captured in your cup. Slowly. So, slowly, please, with, a, slowness, that, is, foreign, to, you. THINK the whole slow time of chewing and drinking how this water has been in a cycle for MILLIONS OF YEARS, falling to earth, quenching horses, elephants, lizards, dinosaurs, humans. They pissed, they died, their water evaporated and gathered again into clouds to drizzle down AND STORM DOWN into rivers, puddles, aqueducts, and ancient cupped hands. Humans who LOVED, who are long dead, humans who thieved, raped, murdered, were generous, playful, disappointed, fearful, annoyed and adored one another, each of them dying in their own way, their water going back to the sky, coming back down to your bread, your lips, your stomach, to feed your sinew, your brain, your living, beautiful day. Take your notes POET, IT IS YOUR MOMENT to be totally aware, completely aware!


One Day I Will Step from the Beauty Parlor and Enlist in the Frequency of Starlings

my favorite morning

is not caring if

blood on sheets

is yours or mine

 

a machine in

your station

rides me

tracks to snacks

snacks to tracks

 

I feel very fortunate

to know magic is real

and poetry is real

you can see it in the writing

a belief in one is missing

 

a mouse eating

the dead

cat our

longed-for

malfunction

 

I was born

inTopeka

otherwise

they would have

never let me in

 

they circle away holding this place

opening opening opening OPENING UP

I grope the tree down its root

 

if truth soothes

soothing was

not truth’s goal

 

my goal

is to do what

produces

memory

as gentle

as vicious

can

 

one promise: when

I get to the bottom I’ll

accelerate deeper

my small pile

of poems

surprising

everyone along the

open wound

“was there a

death” they ask

“a merger” I say

 

everyone paying attention

enjoy your visit

everyone else

good luck

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